Sunday, February 15, 2004

John so this what it means nice kaayo!

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast.

It is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.

It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
But rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trust,
Always hopes, always perserveres.


My "Post" Valentines '04

Hmmm you might be wondering why I always have this post than a pre or the valentines dyud well to tell you the truth... I don't know hehehe but seriously mas ganahan kog mag blog after the event..

So how's your V-Day? me? ok naman I spend the whole evening fetching my sister at the Golden Peak Hotel for her Prom as Junior nya just dance the night a way at timezon, I chased the running man "john" at ayala... ate at jollibee and do almost the free thing I can do all by myself..

Speaking of all by myself... I realized that ok naman pala na wala kang ka valentine kung sabagay gasto kaayo nya hassle pa... I guess spending it with our love ones can make it valentines worth spending huh? Kasi naman there times talaga na when a guy ask for a date for valentines, some rejects it coz they dont like his o rher face or maybe nagpapakiput lang, then makabantay ka nila na naay mosour grape kay wala silang kadate reject kasi ng reject ng invitation ayun walang plans. Guys remember this song? "Nobody wants to be lonely... but why dont u let me love you...bitaw no!

As of now I'm home and eyes are starting to fall na yawn so I'll just leave this song in my minddont worry I swear you'll like the song kahit lokal na lokal ang feeling..

TITLE Hinahanap ng Puso
ALBUM Gloc 9 [2003]
COMPOSER Aristotle Pollisco
Pasensya na aking mahal
'Di naman ako magtatagal
Nais ko lamang marinig mo ang bawat nilalaman
Ng puso kong ito
Inaalay ko sa 'yo
Dinggin mo sana mga sinasabi ng awitin ko


Pilitin mang ibaling
At sa iba'y isalin
Ay 'di malimot ang halimuyak na hatid ng hangin
Nung una kang makita
Hindi makapaniwala
Parang panaginip at langit aking nadarama


REFRAIN
Nais kong malaman mong ikaw ay aking iniibig
Sana ay dinggin mo ang tibok nitong dibdib
Nais kong malaman mong ikaw ang nasa panaginip
At magkalapit agwat ng ating daigdig


CHORUS
Hinahanap ng puso ang pag-ibig mo (makinig ka sana sa 'kin)
'Di ko malilimutan ang pagmamahal at ligaya na dala mo (laman ng aking damdamin)
At kung saka-sakali na kaya mo pang ibalik (sige na 'wag ka nang mag-alinlangan)
Ang dating pagtingin sa puso kong nananabik pa sa iyo


Ngunit ngayon alam ko na
Sadyang magkaiba
Ano nga naman ang 'di mo pwedeng makita sa kanya
Merong magarang kotse
Wallet na doble-doble
'Di tulad ko na 'di man lang makapanood ng sine


Sana'y malaman mo
Na mawala man ako
Ay may pag-ibig na laging gumagabay sa 'yo
'Di ka pababayaan
Laging aalagaan
Hanggang sa dulo ay tunay aking naramdaman


[Repeat REFRAIN]
[Repeat CHORUS thrice]

Tomorrow might be too late.........
>
>If you're mad with someone , and nobody's there to fix the situation...You fix it . Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend . And if u don't, tomorrow can be too late .
>
>If you're in love with somebody , but that person doesn't know... tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you . And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late .
>
>If you really want to kiss somebody... kiss her/him. Maybe that person wants a kiss from you, too . And if you don't kiss her/him today, tomorrow can be too late .
>
>If you still love a person that you think has forgetten you... tell her/him. Maybe that person have always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today , tomorrow can be too late.
>
>If you need a hug of a friend... ask her/him for it. Maybe they need it more than you do. And if you don't ask for it today, tomorrow can be too late.
>
>If you really have friends who you appreciate... tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. That if you don't and they leave or go far away today , tomorrow can be too late.
>
>If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it . Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. That if you don't and they leave today , then tomorrow can be too late.
>
>SEND THIS MAIL TO EVERY PERSON YOU CARE ABOUT , INCLUDING THE ONE WHO SENT IT TO YOU. YOU'LL SEE HOW YOU'RE GOING TO KNOW THAT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO CARES ABOUT YOU , THAT YOU DIDN'T KNEW . Forward it today... coz tomorrow can be too late...
>

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Nothing's gonna stop us now

Looking in your eyes I see a paradise
This world that I found is too good to be true
Standing here beside you, want so much to give you
This love in my heart that I'm feeling for you

Let 'em say we're crazy, I don't care 'bout that
Put your hand in my hand baby, don't ever look back
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us now
Woh woh oh

I'm so glad I found you, I'm not gonna lose you
Whatever it takes, I will stay here with you
Take it to the good times, see it through the bad times
Whatever it takes is what I'm gonna do

Let 'em say we're crazy, what do they know
Put your arms around me baby, don't ever let go
Let the world around us just fall apart
Baby, we can make it if we're heart to heart

And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us

Ooh, all that I need is you, all that I ever need
And all that I want to do, is hold you forever, forever and ever
And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever
Nothing's gonna stop us now
And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other
Nothing's gonna stop us, nothing's gonna stop us
(And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever)
Woh oh oh-oh-oh (nothing's gonna stop us now)
Nothing's gonna stop us (world runs out of lovers)
Now (we'll still have each other)
(Nothing's gonna stop us) us now
(And we can build this dream together) hey baby
(Standing strong forever) I know
(Nothing's gonna stop us now)

Thursday, February 5, 2004

Can this be LOVE? My bro send this to me what do you think peeps dedicated sa mga LAZY me? di ko lazy uy hehehehe

Date: February 5, 2004 4:54 PM


Subject: Ei! Nano! Basahin mo to!!!! (Don't be Lazy!!)


Message: This is a story i came upon one day and
finally
was able to read. YO.. stop bein lazy and just
read on. If u dont.. ud miss a story id say is
worth callin.. TRUE LOVE... read on. But hey...
just read it if u want too. Dont be forced too.



****** She was my best friend and I have known
her since we were small….



******* She knew all my secrets, which reveals
my feelings for her, that I love her not only



because she’s pretty and smart but also the way
she laugh at everything and the way she sees



life and love..



******* I could still remember the first time
we met, I was five years old then, it was one
windy



afternoon having no one to play with except for
my best friend Troy.



He and his family just move out to transfers at
a neighboring state because his father got



promote. And so I climbed up our tree house, I
saw a moving truck coming down the street, I



watched it approaching and noticed a family
station wagon following it.



******* it stop in front of the house and out
came a family. I was about to glance away when
out



came the loveliest girl I’ve seen.



******* She four years old that time but then
even at an early age she was a beauty.



******* She had long curly hair which reach
almost to her waist, she has fair complexion and
eyes



which could make a man lose his heart into them.



******* I continued to watch her, when suddenly
she looked up and saw me watching them in the



tree house window.



******* I was about to duck when she smiled and
waved her hand. I waved back then watched in



amazement as I saw her running towards the tree
house…



******* so I went to the edge of the ladder and
said, “ Would you like to come up?” she
answered,



May I?” so I help her climb up and when she
reach the top she then turned to me and said, “
By



the way, my name’s Sam, what’s yours?” I
answered, “ My name is Christopher but the you
can



call me Chris.” She smiled and said.” Well I
like your name.



****** Hey your tree house’s neat!” then I
replied! Thanks! Troy and I made this, this used
to be



our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball
and go biking together.



****** He was my best friend and I kind of miss
him you know.” She smiled me and said “ I’m here



now, we could do things you used to with troy
and I could be your new friend too. i never had
a boy for



a friend before so it could be exciting to
have one.



****** I could learn how to play ball and I have
my bicycle so we could go biking together.



****** now how does that sound to you?” I smiled
and said. “ Well that sounds good enough.”



****** Then she held her hand and said, “ it’s a
deal then” So that’s how it started.



****** So we became best friends and it was kind
of strange for.

****** She was girl and there are things which
I was hesitant to indulge her like catching
frogs,



swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but
then she tried and did everything just to please
me.



****** There was even a time when she fell off
the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we



had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped
knee.



****** I could still remember the time when she
hit the window of our neighbor when we were



playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr.
Chambers and promise to pay for the damage,



which meant having to loose a week’s allowance.



****** I remembered the time when I fell off the
tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten, Sam
near



to tears when she saw the helpless kitten
trapped in a branch.



****** I even fought with the tough guy and
tease Sam and made her cry and I ended up having
a



black eye and a bruised cheek.



****** I remember Sam crying as she placed an
ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a



get-well kiss. I did everything to please her
and gave everything her little heart desires.



****** The lake was our favorite hang out. We
had our Saturday swim routine, we would pack a



food and later eat them under the big oak tree.



****** there was a special branch in which the
two of us could sit together and tell each
other’s



dreams.



****** She dreams of being a Ballerina and she
knows my dream of becoming doctor, she never



laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they
were quite impossible. It made me like her even



more.



****** As years went by, I noticed that my
feelings towards her were slowly changing.
Somehow,



I thought it was just a simple crush case, but
when i started thinking about her at night,
dreaming



of her and having the feeling of wanting to be
with her all the time.



****** I thought it was something different,
something that made me feel strange, but then it
was



exhilarating feeling, it made me feel so alive,
whenever our hands touch, I could feel the
tingling



sensation in my spine.



****** Once when we were at the lake having our
Saturday swim routine and as I carried her



towards the water edge, I had the feeling of
not wanting to let go.



****** I just wanting that moment to continue
hoping it would never end. I then realized I was



slowly falling in love with my best friend.



****** Many times I tried to deny the feeling
for I was scared to imagine what would happen if
ever



I’d try to tell her hoe I feel about her.



****** I was scared because she might think that
I’m taking advantage of her and our friendship, I



was afraid of losing her so I just kept my
feeling hidden.



****** We reached the age of fifteen and I
noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day.



****** How my heart aches whenever I see boys
glance her way, I want to punch their noses as I



watch them talking to her giving compliments,
flowers and chocolates, There were times when I



watch her at a distance mixed feelings anger and
hurt because it hurts so much to know that



there were so many things I wanted to tell her
but then I could not do so.



****** There were so many presents which I long
to give her but then I could not for she might
see



me only as a friend. I was also scared of
letting her know how I feel about her as much as
losing



her.



****** Then one day, I just learned from one
friend that she already had a boyfriend. At
first, I tried



to convince my self that it just a rumor.



****** Her boyfriend was Mark “a popular
senior” who was the heartthrob of the campus.



****** She, being the cheerleader was close to
the basketball team which Mark was the captain,



when I saw the walking together at the parking
lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart



slowly breaking into pieces.



****** I saw her wave at me but I just pretended
not to see her for I was scared that she might
see



in my eyes the pain I’m feeling inside because
of seeing her with another guy.



****** Those days that followed where the
saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when
I



see her walk by me with him at her side.



****** every time we meet in hallways and I see
him around her, there’s a feeling inside me that



makes me want to grab her away from him, How it
hurts to see the girls I long possess was now



owned by somebody else. That special smile I
long for her to cast on me was now casted on him



as she passes by me, she doesn’t know that I
whispered the words “God hoe I love you.”



****** Then one faithful day they broke-up. She
came to me that evening crying on my shoulder.



They had a big fight and ended up to their
break up.



****** Mixed felling were scaring me inside. I
was happy because she was free and maybe I



would have the chance of telling her my true
feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad



because she is crying her heart out just for
him.



****** at that time, I was not quite sure of
what I wanted to do. So we found our selves
doing what



we did in old days with our Saturday swim
routine, spending time in our tree house, we
still



enjoyed doing childish pranks for we are still
are both young at heart.



****** So many chances I had for me to confess
my feelings for her but still I couldn’t bring
my self



to her for I was scared of losing her once more.



****** I once lost her, now I could not bear of
losing her again by telling her I love her.



****** So I just kept my feelings even if it was
bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.



****** It was a week from our JS Prom, we were
seated at the branch of an oak tree drying



ourselves after our afternoon swim when she
said “ I was wondering Chris if you like to be
my



partner ?” it just out of my wits for it was
like a dream I never thought would happen.



****** It took me a while to answer he, “ I
thought there are so many boys who would die for
to be



their partner ?” So she turned away and quietly
said “Well I just thought I would like to spend
that



night with my best friend.”



****** Then she continued in a whisper I could
barely hear, “ Don’t you want to die just like
them



to be my partner Chris?”



I was too stunned to speak for it came close for
me to blurt my feelings for her



****** We’re silent for a while until I finally
whispered “ I would be happy to be your partner
Sam “



****** Then she smiled and suddenly kiss my
cheek, I could hardly contained the joy I felt
that



time, I saw her turned rd and bowed her head.



****** Suddenly she stood up and run towards the
water saying, “ Last one to reach the water



treats to sundae fudge! “



****** I ran slowed up so that I would lose
which meant having to have her with me for
another



three hours or more.



****** Our Prom night came, I bought a new
tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of



perfume, I went to fetch Sam.



****** Sam’s mother greeted me and I went to sit
in the living room waiting for her to come down.



****** I was talking to her father when i heard
her say, “ How do I look ?” I look up and saw
her



lovelier than ever in strapless white dress with
her hair flowing around her face.



****** I stood up and opened my mouth but found
out I could not find my voice.



****** When I got her hand shakily fastened the
corsage around her wrist and whispered, “ To the



loveliest girl in the whole world “ She then
ask, “ is the true?”



****** I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back
then I turned to open the door her.



****** When we arrived at the gymnasium we
hardly recognized our classmates, gone were the



jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with
tuxedos and gowns.



****** Then I held her hand bowed and said, “
would you give the honor of your first dance?”
She



laughed and curtseyed.



****** The I led her to the dance floor, it was
like a dream coming true, a moment of
enchantment,



I was there dancing with the only girl I ever
loved, she was smiling up to me, as we were
slowly



moving in a smooth gliding motion.



******* I found my self lost as I stared down to
her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair
were



like waves enhancing her beautiful face.



******* There were so many things to tell her
that moment. I wanted to tell her that she was
the



most beautiful girl that night, I wanted to
tell her that she would always be the beacon of
light in



my darkness.



******* But what I wanted to tell her the most
was I love her, I drew up all my courage and
bent to



whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music
stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to



telling her, but still haven’t done it.



****** We walked towards the table and found
ourselves surrounded by friends ask her if she



want a drink, she nodded and so I went to get
one, it took me a lone time to get one and when
I



returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her
friend, Katie, where she was but she told me
that



she doesn’t know. So I went out and search for
he.



****** as I was searching for her, I reached the
garden, there I saw two silhouette figures
outlined



by the moon’s silvery light, there were so close
to each other, I could never described the
feeling I



had when I recognized the white dress Sam was
wearing that night. I just turned and left the



gymnasium.



****** Since that night, I avoided her, Many
times she tried talking to me but I never gave
her a



chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say
that she loves mark and not me. I would rather
have



left in ignorance of her true feelings for me
than to hear from those dreaded words and feel
my



hope crush and my heart break.



****** I didn’t return her calls. I would not
see her if she comes into our house. In the
hallways, as



she approaches I would go to another direction,
it also hurts to do those things but then I
thought



that was the best way to forger her, Those
months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.



****** The day of our graduation came, I was
planning to take up medicine at a neighboring
state



and was to move out the next day. As the program
ended she approached me and handed me a



rose, s she stared at me there was something in
her eyes I couldn’t described.



****** There was sadness in them and when she
smiled it wasn’t the same smile she had, I



wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that
I love her but then she turned and walked away



from me.



****** So I move out the next day as I planned,
luckily, I was accepted at the university, I



concentrated with my studies but still I think
of her at night.



****** I was always wondering if she think of me
too, I tried hard not to think of her but still
I could



not stop myself from loving her.



****** Each achievement I have was done was for
her, I thought that if I will be successful one



day, I would be able to tell her that I love her
and by that time, I’m worthy of having her.



****** It was a year after our graduation when I
decide to returned home and see her again, I



thought a year is too much for me not to see
her, and during the past year I felt like a
person lost



in the desert and only the sight of her could
quench the thirst I have inside.



****** As I got off the plane, I went home
directly, desperate to get house to see her, to
hug her,



then I would tell her that I missed her and that
I have loved her for a long time.



****** This time I am determined to let her my
true feelings for her and I could not contain



anymore the love I have for her.



****** I reached their house, I saw her older
sister and I approached her, I smile at her but I



noticed she didn’t smile back, I was confused
for she used to be a cheerful lazy like my dear



Sam, I then ask, ‘ hi Jen! I guess you’re
surprised why I’m here, well I just want to
visit you and I



was also hoping to see Sam, I kind of miss her
you know.. Ummm……..bby the way have you



seen her?” all I saw was sadness in her eyes as
she replied quietly, “ Come follow me.”



****** I was confused with the way she’s acting
but still I followed her.



****** as we were walking, I was trying to
indulge her in conversation but just answered my



question briefly, Then I realized that she was
leading me to the direction of the lake.



****** It was still same as I left it, with the
sane oak tree Sam and I used to climb up, I
smiled upon



remembering the kiss Sam gave when I’m agreed to
be her partner, it’s been one of the happiest



days in my life and I realized that I miss Sam
more than I thought.



****** Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to
the tree, she then whispered, “ There’s Sam. “



I looked at where she was pointing and saw a
newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever



loved. I could not believe at what I saw and
desperately tried convincing myself that this is
all just

a nightmare and would soon wake up.



****** I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her
eyes searching for explanations and slowly
started



saying, “ It has been a week since she died. She
died of Leukemia, but even though she was



sick, she never stopped thinking about you, it
was even your name she uttered before she died.



****** She ask us to bury her here for she
always regard this place as a place of LOVE. She
said



that this is where she had spent the happiest
days and that was when she was with you. By the



way she also asked me to give you this.”



****** she handed me a parcel, and with that she
left. I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it



contained the dried orchid from the corsage I
gave her for our prom.



****** Then at he bottom I saw a letter. It was
dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands



and started reading…….







*************************************************
*************************************************
*************



I know by this time you read this letter I’m
gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very
lucky and



thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I
would also like you to know that I had left
something



inside, something I kept from you all these
years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way
but as one



who would feel like spending the rest of my life
with, I have always love you even from the
start. I



guess it just bloomed each day that’s why the
happiest days of my life was when you were by my



side.



****** You just don’t know hoe I dreamed of you
at night and wake up in the morning and dream



no more for you are with me, when you are away,
I can’t stop crying because I’m afraid to think



that you are with another girl, I just want you
all to my self, I may sound selfish but that’s
how I



fell. Each time you held me close to you was
like a dream coming true for to be close to you
and



feel your heart beating..



****** Next to mine was heaven. So many things I
did so that you will learn to love me but I



NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please
you because I love you so much that I even tried
to



fool myself that you’re in love with me too.



***** So many nights I’ve cried when I think of
myself unloved by you. Well you might think that



what I’m sayin are lies but, I tell you, my
heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling
a lie to the



one I love.



****** I know you might be thinking of Mark but
I just did that to make you jealous, to make you

see me as a young woman, capable of loving and
not as the little girl you used to play with.



****** Sometimes I imagined that you were
jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign
that you



feel something for me too.



****** When Mark and I broke up and I came
crying, I just did that to know hoe you would
react



and with that I’ll know that you love me too.
But I failed for you didn’t give me any clue.



***** when our prom night came, you just don’t
know how happy I was when you handed me the



corsage and saying that I was the loveliest
girl in the whole world.



****** While we were dancing, I wanted so
desperately to hear you say that you love me too
but



you NEVER did. When mark came and pleaded me to
give him a second chance, I was scared



that you might see us talking.



****** I didn’t want you to get the wrong
impression so I told him we would talk in the
garden.



There I explained to him that it’s you whom I
really love.



****** what happened next was that I found you
missing and later learned that you were
searching



for me, I just concluded that you saw us
together.



****** The next day, I tired to explain but then
you never gave me a chance to do so, you



continuously avoided me and never knew how much
pain I’ve experienced that time.



****** I felt the world crushing on me. In our
Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted
to



tell you how much I love you but I decided that
I just couldn’t do it. I could not bear to hear
that all



you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love
For.



****** I want you to love me as a woman and not
as a girl or playmate.



****** So I just turned away and left.



****** Now that I’m saying I LOVE YOU might be
too late, still want you to know that I will
always



love you and my heart has always been and will
be yours alone.





P.S.



********* Think of me sometimes…..and always
remember that loving you was the best thing that



ever happened my life…





*************************************************
*************************************************
*************

I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter,
I wanted to shout out to let her know that I
love her, if

not as much, but more than she did for me.



****** I love her more than anything in this
world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave
and rain

started to fall. I continued crying softly and
whispered, “ OH God, send my love to heaven.”


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WEl wat do u think? So to all those ppol whu hav
sum1 special and close to their heart.. dont be
stupid to wait for a chance to tell them. Do it
now. Der is no such thing as the ryt tym to tell
any1 how u feel. The ryt tym is now so start
tellin ppol how u feel. I dunno if u wud want to
send this but im sendin this to all of u guys to
really start aking ur friends and specially ur
one and only's with love dat is true. Friendship
happens once in a lifetym and we only hav a
lyftym to last. So... to all u guys im sendis
dis out too.. I LUV U ALL!!

Tuesday, February 3, 2004

Song in mind I dont know but I really got nothing to say right now music seems to be over flowing in my head right now oh well here's another one grabe i like this sheryn regis version so relax and free

Through the fire

I look in your eyes and I can see
We’ve loved so dangerously
You’re not trusting your heart to anyone
You tell me you’re gonna play it smart
We’re through before we start
But I believe that we’ve only just begun

When it’s this good, there’s no saying no
I want you so, I’m ready to go

Chorus:
Through the fire
To the limit, to the wall
For a chance to be with you
I’d gladly risk it all
Through the fire
Through whatever, come what may
For a chance at loving you
I’d take it all the way
Right down to the wire
Even through the fire

I know you’re afraid of what you feel
You still need time to heal
And I can help if you’ll only let me try
You touch me and something in me knew
What I could have with you
Well I’m not ready to kiss that dream goodbye

When it’s this sweet, there’s no saying no
I need you so, I’m ready to go

Chorus

Through the test of time

Chorus

Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever
Through the fire, to the limit
Through the fire, through whatever
song in mind Guys you know this song? its the first time i heard it its so nice makahilak az in waaah!

"The Art Of Letting Go"
by Mikaila

OOOOOOHhhhhhhhhh

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Monday, February 2, 2004

Song in mind This song keeps on playing in the radio stations almost everywhere so i guess i have to post it since its bugging my head na it keeps on singing in my nervous system heheh exag!

Come In Out Of The Rain by: Wendy Moten
Year: 1993


Ooo-ooo-oo
Ooo-oo-oo
Ooo-ooo-ooo-oo

You said you believed that we`d
Find love together happily
After all the wrong I`ve done
You feel that I`m still the one
To give your loving to
So bring it home to you

Chorus
----------
You told me that you`d love me if I`d ever change
Welcome me into your arms again
Come on in out of the rain, hey
There`s a place in your heart to love me again
Happiness and joy you bring
When you call my name
Come on in out of the rain

I loved no one but you
But I strayed, I know I made you blue
You spoke unto my very soul
You warmed my heart that once was cold
Now I`m so glad to know

Chorus
----------
You told me that you`d love me if I`d ever change
Welcome me into your arms again
Come on in out of the rain, hey
There`s a place in your heart to love me again
Happiness and joy you bring
When you call my name
Come on in out of the rain

Bridge
---------
Some people spend a lifetime looking for love
And I had love right here all the time
Why did I try to deny it
Deep inside I just couldn`t fight it
You turned my life around
The love I lost is found
So let the rain come down

Chorus
----------
You told me that you`d love me if I`d ever change
Welcome me into your arms again
Come on in out of the rain, hey
There`s a place in your heart to love me again
Happiness and joy you bring
When you call my name
Come on in out of the rain

(Come on in out of the rain)
Ooooo-oh-ooo, yeah, yeah, yeah
(Come on in out of the rain)

Baby, come out of the rain

Sunday, February 1, 2004

Long time no blog guys miss me? hehehe

Feisty Red this Val Days

Hye guys how'd you like my new template for this month of feruary gee grabe expect a lot of activities as well as busy na busy sa tanang kabisihan! from council to theater plays academix to family anyways, I wish everything would go out perfect... well kung hindi man perfect at least gamay lang siguro na mistakes no waaah. Hmmm this is really going to be one of the fantastic month for those who are "blessed" with gf's and bf's but you know what? I'm happy that I can spend it with myself (hahah jsut like the last 2 yrs hehehhe) seriously, I think I can celebrate V day with my friends as well as classmates. Sana nga din I could watch My Sassy Gurl all over waah grabe I can't wait to watch that movie again...

What a great revelation last week... namove ang engineering week that means I can push through with "Project : Variety Show " and pass the letter by tuesday. guys lets cross our fingers and hope it would come true "Sabado na Gyud!" sa USCTC whoa! Still having this loads of activities sa CEC as well, the Group Harana 2004! but I really wish I could focus on my play this is one play I want to make it good. Well for those who don't know yet The USC Theater Guild will launching its february production by the last week of the month and its entitled: "Hanggang Dito na Lamang at maraming Salamat" A Love Story with a twist the story may be different but the feeling can be relating guys support my play pls...

Song in mind Ei peeps if you ever hear this song sa myx you'll agree with me this song is way kewl talaga!

Rainbow by South Borders

fallin out fallin in
nothings sure in this world no no
breaking down breaking in
never knowing what lies ahead
we can really never tell it all no no

say goodbye say hello
to a lover or friend
sometimes we could never understand
why some things begin with just love
we can never have it all
no no no ohh

but oh, cant you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

hittin high hittin low
win or lose you should go
yeah yeah
getting warm getting cold
weather can be so good or bad
but baby this is life so dont get mad
no no no

coz ohhh
can't you see
that no matter what happens
life goes on and on
and so baby just smile
coz im always around you
and i'll make you see
how beautiful life is for you and me

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

life's full of challenges
not all the time we get what we want
but dont despair my dear
you'll take it each trial
and you'll make it through the storm
coz youre strong
my faith in you is clear
so i say once again
this world's beautiful
let us celebrate life that is so beautiful
so beautiful...

take a little time baby
see the butterflie's colors
listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
can you feel me
this is such a wonderful place to me

even if there is pain now
everything will be alright
for as long as the world still turns
there will be night and day
can you hear me
there's a rainbow always after the rain

Thursday, January 29, 2004

Japs time
Got this one from Kittin (get well soon gurl miss you mwuah!)

Mareo
MAREO: rare; uncommon
People of your personality type should visit:
www.life-blood.cjb.net


What would your Japanese name be? (male)
brought to you by Quizilla

You are M

"There is someone out there I am meant to love

Sometimes I bear deep wounds

But I know that someday I will be healed

By the person I am meant to love..."

Here's a jap song "M" I got this result in my quiz cool no? one letter mean a lot of meaning

M





English

"Maria" There is someone I should love;
every person who has ever been hurt...

As I look around,
everyone busily
hurries on by.

I noticed that this year, too,
the signs of winter have
come very soon.

Again, somewhere in this city today
two people will meet and fall in love;
the curtains are violently opened.

Even so, everything eventually,
someday, has an end.

Again, somewhere in this city today
two people split apart;
the curtains are quitely dropped.

"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I feel very lonely.
But my needs are all filled
by the person I should love.

"Maria" There is someone I should love.
At times I bear very deep wounds.
But my they are all healed
by the person I should love.

"Maria" Everyone is crying.
But I want to believe.
So i'm praying now
that this is my final love.
Beginnings come at random,
but endings always have meaning.


Romaji

'MARIA' Ai subeki hito ga ite
KIZU wo otta subete no monodachi...

Mawari wo miwataseba
Dare mo ga awatadashiku
Dokoka ashibaya ni toori sugi

Kotoshi mo ki ga tsukeba
Konnani sugu soba made
Fuyu no kehai ga otozureteta

Kyou mo kitto kono machi no dokoka de
Deatte Me ga atta futari
Hageshiku maku ga aketeku

Soredemo subete ni wa
Kanarazu itsu no hi ni ka
Owari ga yatte kuru mono dakara

Kyou mo mata kono machi no dokoka de
Wakare no michi Erabu futari
Shizukani maku wo oroshita

'MARIA' Ai subeki hito ga ite
Toki ni Tsuyoi kodoku wo kanji
Dakedo Ai subeki ano hito ni
Kekkyoku nani mo ka mo mitasareru

'MARIA' Ai subeki hito ga ite
Toki ni Fukaku fukai KIZU wo oi
Dakedo Ai subeki ano hito ni
Kekkyoku nani mo ka mo iyasareteru

'MARIA' Dare mo mina naite iru
Dakedo shinjite itai
Dakara inotte iru yo
Kore ga saigo no koi de aru you ni
Wakenaku hajimari wa otozure
Owari wa itsudatte wake wo motsu...

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

Emotion Definition One Oh One (101)

I got this one from my friend's email nice kaayo what do you think guys?...

It isn't love.... Then it's Love


Message:

Message: Are your palms sweaty, is your heart
racing and
is your voice
caught within your chest??

-It isn't love, it's LIKE.

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them,
am
I right??

-It isn't love, it's LUST.


Are you proud, and eager to show them off??

-It isn't love, it's LUCK.


Do you want them because you know they're there??

-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.


Are you there because it's what everyone wants??

-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.


Are you there because they kissed you, or held
your hand??

-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.


Do you stay for their confessions of love,
because you\don't
want to hurt them??

-It isn't love, it's PITY.


Do you belong to them because their sight makes
your heart skip
a beat??

-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.


Do you pardon their faults because you care
about
them??

-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.


Do you tell them every day they are the only one
you think of??


-It isn't love, it's a LIE.


Are you willing to give all of your favorite
things for their
sake??

-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.


Does your heart ache and break when they're sad??

-Then it's LOVE.


Do you cry for their pain, even when they're
strong??

-Then it's LOVE.


Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch
your
soul so
deeply it hurts??

-Then it's LOVE.


Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible
mix of pain
and relation pulls you close and holds you
there??

-Then it's LOVE.


Do you accept their faults because they're a
part
of who they
are??

-Then it's LOVE.


Are you attracted to others, but stay with them
faithfully
without regret??

-Then it's LOVE.


Would you give them your heart, your life, your
death??

-Then it's LOVE.


Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why
do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life? This pain,
this agony? Why
is it all we long for?


This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?
The answer is
so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an
addictive thing that
even people who are not having it wish to
experience it and
share it with others as well.

Tuesday, January 20, 2004

alcohol



You are Alcohol!


A little sloppy, a little hungry, and a whole lot horny.

So what if you've had a drunken fling or two with puke still in your hair?

You're the life of the party - well, if you can get invited...



What Drug Are You?

More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva

Wednesday, January 14, 2004

Happy in my every different ways and meanings

I'm in the CEC office right now got bored so I'm going to blog na lang by the ways, I really love the song "if You Believe" by Rachel Lampa, its actually palying right now... anyways, I'm sort of happy right now I'm busy with some stuff like the midterms but I feel so relaxed as if wala dyud midterms its kinda scary sometimes nga kasi I might fail the exam for total recklessness... oh! There's also some stuff that I'm really worried about ... my weight hahahaha seriously, I need to lose weight for 1 month because the theater guild will be having this February PLay "Hanggang Dito na lamang at maraming salamat" its a different kind of story but everyone can relate to it... like "Mahal mo sya pero hindi ka nya mahal stuff and things like that". Last Sunday my ex called me at my cell and talked almost 45 mins until malow batt sya. I'm really happy for her. Kung iisipin its for her own good naman she's going to Guam and study nursing then lilipad sya going to america to be a nurse for the military... I said whoa! grabe ang plans but she promised she'll be going home after two years... sana nga no? ako din, sana after two years makauuwi ako sa manila gusto ko na syang makita...aaminin ko there's still a spark of me that want to be with her but marami na kasing nagbago samin hindi ko mapagkakaila yun besides 2yrs? don't think hindi sya makakakita nun magmamahal sa kanya na higit pa sa pagmamahal ko... hahaha para naman akong batang nagtatampo...I miss you...


Tuesday, January 13, 2004

My inner color... Purple

What Color Are You?



Read this and then send it to as many friends as
you can including the person who sent it to
you.....after discovering what "color" you are,
read the description at the bottom for that
color.....send this back to the person who sent
it to you and to other friends....don't forget
to
change the color in the "subject" of your e-
mail! !!!!!!!

(PUT YOUR OWN COLOR IN THE SUBJECT LINE)



If your birthday is on......

December 23rd~ January 1st = Red

January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange

January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow

January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink

February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue

February 9th ~ February 18th = Green

February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown

March 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua

March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime

March 21st = Black

March 22nd ~ March 31st = Purple

April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy

April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver

April 21st ~ April 30th = White

May 1st ~ May 14th = Blue

May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold

May 25th ~ June 3rd= Cream

June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey

June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon

June 24th = Grey

June 25th ~ July 4th = Red

July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange

July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow

July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink

August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue

August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green

August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown

September 3rd ~ September 12th = Aqua

September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime

September 23rd = Olive

September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple

October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy

October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver

October 24th ~November 11th = White

November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold

November 22nd ~ December 1st = Cream

December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey

December 12th~ December 21st = Maroon

December 22nd = Teal


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*
******



*RED*

Cute and lovable type, You are picky but always
in love... and

liked to be loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can
be "moody" at times. Capable with people nice,
soft, and that can love you or the way you are.
Likes people that are easy to talk to, and can
make you feel comfortable.



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*CREAM* Competitive and sportive. Don't like
losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy,
and very out going.

you choose love carefully, and don't fall in
love
easily. But once you find the right one, you
don't let go or a long time.

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-
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*TEAL*

You are mostly interested in your looks. And
have
high standards in picking love. You think and
make a solution precisely, and hardly make
stupid
mistakes. You like to lead, and is easy for you
to make new friends.

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*GREY*

You are attractive, and active. You never hide
your feelings, and express everything that's
inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to
be noticed, and don't like to be treated
unequally. You can brighten up peoples day. You
know what to say at the right time, and you have
a good sense of humor.

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*GREEN*

You get along well with new people. You are not
really a shy

person, but sometimes you can hurt people's
feelings by your words... You like to be loved
and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are
single, waiting for the right person.

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*GOLD*

You know what's right and what's wrong. You are
cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to
find
the one you want, but once you find the right
person, you won't be able to fall in love again
for a long time.

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-
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*PINK*

You are always trying your best in everything,
and like to help and care for other people. But
you are not easily satisfied. You have negative
thoughts, and you look for romantic love like in
a fairytale.

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*YELLOW*

You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many
people, and have a strong leadership towards
relationships. You make good decision and make
the right choice at the right time. And always
dreaming of romantic relationship.

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-
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*MAROON*

You are intelligent, and know what's right. You
like to make

things go your way, which can sometimes cause
trouble for not thinking about other people's
feelings. But you be patient when it comes to
love.. Once you get a hold of the right person,
it's hard for you to find a better love.

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-
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*ORANGE*

You are responsible for your own actions, and
you
know how to treat people.You always have goals
to
reach and you really work hard to get there, you
are competitive. Your friends are really
important to you and you appreciate what you
have, you sometimes over react that's because
you
are sensitive.
[<_*_orAnGe aq?!!!220 nga ung mga cnb dun..!!
kaso bt lan 2ngkol s luv lyf??
hehehehe..;P_*_>]

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*PURPLE*

You are mysterious, never selfish and get
interested in things

easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending
on
your mood. You are popular between friends but
you can act stupid at times, and forget things
easily. You go for a person that's trustworthy.

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*LIME*

You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get
jealous easily,

and complain over little things. You can't get
stuck into one thing, but you have a capable
personality for everyone to trust you and like
you.

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*SILVER*

You are imaginative and fun, you love trying new
things. You like to challenge yourself and you
learn things easily, you're easy to talk to and
you give good advice. When comes to friendship,
you find it hard to trust someone, but once you
find the right friend, you trust them forever.

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-
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*BLACK*

You are challenging, and have the "guts". But
you
don't like

changes in your life. And once you make a
decision, you keep it that way for a long time.
Your love life is also challenging, and
different.

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-
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*OLIVE*

You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow
well with

friends and family. You don't like violence and
know what's right. You are kind and cheerful,
but
don't envy other people easily.

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-
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*BROWN*

You are active and sportive. It's hard for other
people to become close with you, but you fall in
love easily. But once you find out you can't get
something, you give up and let go easily as
well.

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*BLUE*

You may have low self-esteem, and can be very
picky. You are

artistic and like to fall in love, but you let
your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not
your heart.

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*NAVY*

You are attractive, and love your life. You have
a strong feeling towards everything. And very
easily distracted. Once you get angry at
someone,
its hard for you to forgive them.

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-
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*WHITE*

You dream and have goals in your life. You get
jealous easily and you don't react to things
easily. You are different and sometimes weird,
but everyone loves that in you.

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-
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*..AQUA..*

Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You
are
always lonely, and like traveling. You are
truthful, but listen and believe other people
too
easily. It's hard to find love for you, and get
lost in love easily, Sometimes get hurt by love.






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SEND THIS TO ALL UR FRIENDZ.!!

Love Attitude No. 7

Seven

Your love nature is thoughtful, poetic, mystical
and mysterious. A few
people with love attitude number seven are class
clowns, and they
usually attract guys/gals who like to be given a
hard time. But most of
you are the quiet, reserved types who dislike
calling attention to
yourself. Your type generally attracts guys who
feel the same way you
do. Your refined, independent and secretive
nature is very alluring to
certain guys/gals. At times you can also be
somewhat fault-finding and a
little demanding in your love relationship and
with friends. You are
mostly attracted to guys/gals who aren't like
all
the rest; a loner
easily attracts you. And, if he/she reads a lot
and enjoys learning,
he/she is especially perfect for you.

Saturday, January 10, 2004

Song on my mind right now: With a Smile- Eraserheads
ang sarap ng feeling as if you know there is somebody who can catch you when you fall and be there at the time of pain and depression.. the lyrics says it all...

Eraserheads - With A Smile Lyrics
lift yer head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong
along the way
you'll get by with a smile
u can't win at everything but u can try
and baby u don't have to worry
coz there ain't no need to hurry
no one ever said that there's no easy way
and when they're closing all their doors
and they don't want u anymore
this sounds funny but i'll say it anyway
girl i'll stay
through the bad times
even if i have to fetch u everyday
i'll get by if u smile
u can never be too happy in this life
coz in a world where everybody hates
a happy ending story
it's a wonder love can make the world go round
but don't let it bring u down
and turn ur face into a frown
u'll get along with a little prayer and a song
lift yer head
baby don't be scared
of the things that could go wrong along the way
we'll get by with a smile
now it's time to kiss away
those tears goodbye





In the eyes of a child: The CompE Council Outreach Project at Parian

Its my first time to be in this out reach project coz the las ttime we had this I was at home, anyways, it was around 8:45 when I arrived at school wearing my fave paratrooper pants and I saw John waiting for me at the guard house and got 2 plastic of light food for the snacks later..

Before we arrive at our destination we stopped at Gaisano COuntry Mall for some safe and scary reasons or shall I say a conspiracy of a "going to be " a robbery at our transportation, kasi John told me that the guy infront nako had a gun. Me, the most stupid na wa kabantay na naa diay and honestly don't know "where the gun is" just calm down and acted to that I forgot to buy something so that's why we dropped by at Country Mall. Frankly, it was scary but I don't want something like that ruin my morning right?

Upon arriving at Parian, I've met the kids and Ate Alma, She was our chaperon on our trip to SM kanina. at was 11:45 when we started the program due to some rain that caused the other to get stuck in the traffic or they overslept and woke up late but whatever it is the show must go on! Kahit na hindi sya nakatugma sa time frame John planned. We started with a prayer then got ourselves introduced to the kids and viceversa... I accidentally become the mc ala "Kuya Gary" during the whole program so had Trip to Jerusalem then took some light snacks and then continued the game with Newspaper Dance and Pass the Jar of Candies. The kids knows these games so once the music starts playing everything just went automatic and ended fast thus giving time to go at SM.

Because of engine problems we decided to ride the Kaoshiung Bus (is the spelling right?). Grabe! ang saya sa bus! jammin kaayo sila pati kaming mga volunteers na sina Van, Canence, Stanley, Manuel, Tonet, Me, ramon and John singed along as well lets see we sang perfect, then mr suave, forevers not enough marami pa they like alternative songs pala. Whee my voice got sored through all that singing and shouting hhehee

At SM, we ate at Majestic and while we we're waiting for the food, John suggested to teach the kids on how to use chopsticks (even I don't know it) we'll while we're having a blast of a meal (I tell you the food here is great!). my friend texted me that he's at Sm as well so I met him up at the entrance of the resto and chat and did some kakulitan blues with my od time frind I missed him a lot I can say he change a bit... maybe becuase of the hair, anyways, we shared our see you alter and headed to the Dept. store where we buy the kids some things they needed like clothes, shoes etc. After that we escorted them at the parking area where their transpo to their home is waiting for them, we exchanged good byes with our new found little kulitin friends and we also parted ways and go ahead to our next destination...

Stuff in my mind right now

I was happy though tiring and back bone breaking experience I had for almost pila ka years, I never thought that taking care of these guys we're tiring .. I mean REALLY tiring but you know what? just by looking at their innocent faces, their energetic "gara-on garr" attitude not to mention their cute smiles bungal man o di parang mapapawi ang kapaguran mo karga dito karga doon kulitan dyan kulitan doon ay grabe! I felt like Its my child in the future.. I can see it now...While we we're on our way to sm and seeing these kids jam like there's no problem in the world makes me think that masarap cguro maging bata ulit no... walang problema, sabay ka sa kanta, no responsibilities at kahit na ganyan man ang mangyari sa kanila beyond thier challenges and trials they still got the strength and energy to be them and stand for their dreams.

this just in...

My best friend Mhonie from Manila texted at around 8:15 telling me that my ex is leaving for Guam tomorrow at 11pm... shit! no way!


Just before you leave: Leah this is for you...8:35-9:00

Hi leigh! if ever you come across this message I guess you're right nagbabaha ng luha dito sa cafe (baduy no?). I was shocked sa text ni best... like you said "biglaan". well wala naman akong magagawa di ba? like I said.. I cannot be there to stop you... but you know naman di ba? mapapsagasa talaga ako sa eroplano tigilan ka lang but on the other side of the coin its for the good for the both of us. I have to admit... you'll going to need it.. for your nursing course naks! bilib naman ako sayo nursing sa Guam pa hahah... and cguro you can gather up your thoughts and maybe wake up one day na hindi lang ako ang pwedeng magpatibok ng puso mo... hindi lang ako ang pwedeng magmahal sayo... at hindi ako ang taong makakasam mo habang buhay alam mo yan. kahit na maraming taon ang nakalipas.. .hindi tayo nagkita... maraming nagbago hindi ko pa rin masasabing karapat dapat ako sayo right? Inaamin ko... nung tumawag ka.. bumilis tibok ng puso ko... anticipation cguro yeah I missed you and guess I'll be missing you more sa Guam. Ha! Siguro after two years, may kasama ka nang syotang kastila ha! Seriously, I wish you the best sa Guam... I love you.... kahit alam kong hindi karapat dapat... I miss you kahit masakit maalala... Ingat k hey! keep in touch may friendster ka naman make that our line of communication ok naks! parang penpal galing Guam! Salamat... nagkita tayo ulit...nakausap ka ulit sana makapiling ka ulit

P.S. Padala ka ng pasalubong ha kahit delata or rubber shoes isesend ko yung trace ng paa ko jokejokejoke take care leigh

footnote: Give some hug and kisses sa best friend ko pati si Sanda pakibatuk na rin pakisabi makulit din sila!

Gary... the guy who lives in different hues of life but the feeling never change...I love you...

Wednesday, January 7, 2004

Kaila mo?: Murag friendster! and my other revalation and its only wednesday!



First and for most (exhales) ok, yesterday gave me full of surprises and I just can't keep it coz I can't sleep of it and I need to get it out. OKhay! let start...

Morning was the usual late as always and to my joy no teacher was around to even substitute for Sir Barangan. Anyways, everything was a routine until my afternoon came and it was our exam at es 18, to my frustration for not even touching the topics about joints and section .. I failed waaah! Since I was also hungry I immediately passed my papers and took an early dismissal, then I saw John posting some stuff about the OUtreach Program so I helped him and joined him back to the office, I was still complaining about my exam that I kinda not focusing on what John was telling me, then came Joevic and the gals. it was 1:30 at my clock so I went to the lobby and take lunch alone nanaman.

As I was going I saw my friend lets call her Greenich Gurl, then after exchanging hi's and hello's and kamustahan blue, I invited her to have lunch with me maybe at Ayala, she declined the offer but she would like to accompany me to Ayala since she'll going to meet her friend there. Ayun so while we were riding the 13C ayun storya ani storya ana we finally ended up in a topis that started my 1st surprise..

I told her that I missed one of our kabarkada whom I got an HD, now before Ms. HD left San Carlos, we kinda ended up in how would I say this.. an awkward situation that I never thought it wouldn't happened... she kinda wanted to me to touch her "mountains". But I hesitated coz I got big respect for her and that I was totally shocked with the whole ordeal coz she's really not like that. anyways, back to the jeepney going to ayala... i told ms greenich na I missed her not because of that awkward moment we had but as well as our bonding. And you know what? she wasn't surprised on what I told her... she said she actually knew what happened! how? coz Ms. HD also confessed on one of my friends what happened before she left.. and you know naman "ang mga kwento kumakalat, lumilipad". and there one nothing that would ever surprise me from this one... Ms. HD has also an HD at me manhid lang talaga ako waaaaah. To my shock, I was speechless! I never thought... so ayun na lang I just thanks Ms. Greenich for telling me that she knew and all that crap and waited for her friend to arrive and for me to take lunch at KFC's

Another revalation that almost made me tick was when I was heading home at kingswood I saw my friend of mine with a company, to my surprise ang kuyog nya ato was my fling in our village (ok something happened and thats that) ayun we exchanged hi and hellos again and I stupidly asked "Kaila lagi mo?" (duh this is a village!) ayun then ms. fling suddenly wrapped her arms around my friend which made me just say "ah ok" naka-g nako maguyab diay sla I don't know waaah, in the first place why should I be affected ? Selos sna hindi hahahaha oh well!

5 things that'll surprise you and wished it didn't suppose to happen (talaga)
5 Everybody knows what happened to you and that gurl
4 Your fling and your best friend... together!
3 Instead that I called what I was trying to say I texted
2 swearing at the back of your teacher
1 when she said "touch it" do I really need to...

Monday, January 5, 2004

taf
You're taffy!! You're a clever and kind person,
but you tend to hold grudges. You are not big
on dishing out forgiveness.


Which kind of candy are you?
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Sunday, January 4, 2004

5 things you wish it wouldn't happen!

5 Laugh so loud in a funeral
4 Absent mindedly raise up and shouted "yeah" in the middle of a speech of the speaker
3 Slipped in front of many people
2 A "loud mouth" friend of yours calling your name in the campus
1 Saying bad criticisms and insults a terror teacher to your friend not knowing he/she is at your back listening
uni
You are Form 3, Unicorn: The Innocent.

"And The Unicorn knew she wasn't meant to
go into the Dark Wood. Disregarding the advice
given to her by the spirits, Unicorn went
inside and bled silver blood.. For her
misdeed, the world knew evil."


Some examples of the Unicorn Form are Eve
(Christian) and Pandora (Greek).
The Unicorn is associated with the concept of
innocence, the number 3, and the element of
water.
Her sign is the twilight sun.

As a member of Form 3, you are a curious
individual. You are drawn to new things and
become fascinated with ideas you've never come
in contact with before. Some people may say
you are too nosey, but it's only because you
like getting to the bottom of things and
solving them. Unicorns are the best friends to
have because they are inquisitive.


Which Mythological Form Are You?
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I like these questions, grabe lusid kaayo tubagon it took me almost 2 hrs to settle an answer well at least na human thanks Maia!

21 QUESTIONS with 21 ANSWERS

1. looks or charm?
Charms of course!

2. love that never was or love that could've been?
love that could've been!

3. end up with a person who has everything you
want and looking for, or end up with someone you
totally connect with?

person that I am looking for so that I could expect that there is more than I expected in the package of what I'm looking for

4. be with a person you have lots in common
with, or someone with a different personality
from you?

Balance cguro, we have same and differences

5. an inner bad boy/girl or an inner good
boy/girl?

I've seen the good sides I'll want to see the inner bad ones

6. smart or funny?
Smart but not too smart coz she can develop humor through her brain

7. a person more adventurous or a person more
laid-back?

An adventurous one! and also who knows first aid if ever I get bruised hehehe

8. think first before falling in love; or fall
in love first, think later?

I have to admit... I fall first without thinking

9. give up everything for love or give up love
to live your dreams?

Dreams first then get back on love sorry :(

10. when you found someone you love; would you
get into a relationship with that person knowing
for sure it wouldn't last, or just be friends
with them so that he/she will always be there?

Be in a relationship and cherish every moment you have with that person before it last

11. when it comes to love, do you surrender to
fate or break away from fate?

Whether I break it I always end up with fate

12. what attracts you most; a person your family
likes, or a person your family hates?

Like siyempre old fashioned but at least approved!

13. meet "the one" at first love or have other
relationships before finally meeting "the one"?

hmm tough one... the one cguro nothing to compared nothing to worry about ex's

14. would you fall for someone you can't have,
or forget about it and distance yourself from
him/her?

Fall i guess at least I tried..

16. when someone you totally don't have feelings
for is into you, would you give him/her a
chance or not?

If I'm attched I wouldn't but kung wala date lang muna

17. do you believe true love last forever or
true love's forever is whatever length of time
you get to spend together?

nope some last a lifetime even until death

18. believe in marriage or not?
yeah

19. find love or wait for love?
I can't wait forever I'll find it soon

20. would you settle for someone or continue to
wait for someone that might never come?

Mahirap to..I'll wait for that promise she will return but not to the extend I'm wasting the moments of not having somebody I loved in my life naks!

21. seek approval of important people in your
life before you marry someone, or it's your
decision and your decision alone if you're going
to marry him/her?

Seek approval! Family!

22. in your relationships, who usually does the
breaking up [the rejection, the ditching, the
turning down], the other person or you?

Them hehehe

23. making a commitment: easy or hard?
Hard but worth it
Just cant get enough of crying ladies hahahaha

Hey guys isang tulog na lang at balik pasukan na! can't believe this! I'm not yet ready for Monday waaah I want more vacation hhahah seriously enough na back to work na and focus school, besides watching the boob-tube and watch Erik Santos winning the Star in a Million grand finals last saturday made me start strucked and get green with envy not to mention my friend from San Carlos Chorister will be joing in the next Star in a million next week. Speaking od Star Strucked, grabe nobody got eliminated last friday! I thought si Rainier since si Rainier naman pacute lang and just an F4 look alike. No offense to Rainier but meron na kasi akong pamboto for who should won and be an artista...Oh no! look what the TV is doing to me hahaha.

Anyways, while I was checking my Friendster and Blogspot sa net, I also visited www.cryingladies.com since I really love the movie I wanted to know the movie more, the synopsis, the characters and even the soundtracks. Grabe! Ang Cebu Local Band na Serendipity is also part of the Soundtrack entitled "Para sa iyo" is very nice guys but I like Parliament Syndicate's "Magbago" the song is kinda strking . for those who love blues, rnb, a little hiphop and tunog chant I recommend you this soundtrack, well of course try watching the movie first then enjoy listening to these songs okhay. I also even downloaded an article about Crying Ladies. So for those who wants to watch this movie try reading this article for a preview or something...

DEFINITELY NOT A FORMULA SHARON CUNETA MOVIE
December 18, 2003 (The Philippine Star) By: Edmund L. Sicam

The 2003 Metro Manila Film Festival offers fantasy flicks with lots of special effects, moving dramas of epic proportions and big productions with a star-studded cast. Unitel
Pictures’ Crying Ladies has none of these elements. Well, almost none. It does have a big-name star --- Sharon Cuneta --- but her co-stars, Hilda Koronel, Angel Aquino, Ricky Davao, Raymond Bagatsing, though highly regarded as actors, do not have the same drawing power as the Megastar.

I have a feeling, though, that this “small” film should pull a surprise or two at the box office and during the awards night.

The story is quite simple. Three women from the backstreets of Chinatown are hired to cry at a Chinese funeral. During their five-day stint, we are afforded glimpses of their ordinary lives that make us laugh, cry and cheer as they struggle to survive under trying circumstances.

Sharon plays Stella Mate, who’s trying to make both ends meet doing odd jobs so that she can get back her son from estranged husband Guido (Ricky Davao). Hilda plays Doray a.k.a Rhoda Rivera, whose only claim to fame is that she played a minor role in the movie Darna and the Giants starring Vilma Santos. She got stepped on by the giant. Now, she’s forcing her reluctant daughter to crash the world of show business. Angel is Choleng who does charity work for a religious foundation. Her weakness is that, she’s having an affair with her friend’s husband (Raymond Bagatsing).

The movie opens with Stella trying to get a job as a singer in Japan. This early, we are reminded that this is a Sharon Cuneta movie. Unlike her previous movies, however, Sharon doesn’t land a recording contract and lead a comfortable life. She needs to get an NBI clearance which is not possible because she has spent time in jail for estafa.

In another scene, she reaches the finals of a Pera o Bayong-type contest where she could win a brand new car. Alas, it’s only a dream and she doesn’t even make it to the first 200 contestants allowed in the studio.

Stella, however, is a survivor so she always finds ways of earning some money. Once, she takes a bus in front of a factory where a strike is going on. She pretends she’s a labor leader and castigates the capitalists for oppressing the workers. Later, she asks the passengers for money to help the strikers. Another trick she uses is to avoid paying the jeepney fare by telling the driver that she took the wrong ride and gets off at her destination.

This is definitely not a formula Sharon movie where she shares kilig moments with her leading man (she doesn’t even have a leading man in this movie) or suffer at the hands of the contravida. This is not to say that she doesn’t suffer in the movie. Stella has to deal with poverty, separation from her son and even a fire that razes her humble abode. The movie, however, does not dwell on her problems but on how she copes with life’s adversities.

Sharon is not given a “dramatic” dialogue nor does she shed copious tears to get our sympathy. It is to the Megastar’s credit that she restrains herself even in the most gut-wrenching scene in the movie. Initially, we laugh at her travails and how she and her friends fake their tears at the wake. As we get to know Stella, however, our heart goes out to her as she fights the seemingly insurmountable odds.

Hilda, on the other hand, does the opposite. Her character is a caricature of a stage mother and someone who’s holding on to her past. She’s ecstatic when her old movie is aired on TV. She’s the most OA when the three do their stuff at the wake. It’s Hilda in a campy role that we do usually don’t associate with the star of Insiang.

Angel’s Doray os the weakest of the three. We’re not referring to her performance but to her character. Doray is a religious woman but she cannot resist temptations of the flesh. She confesses her sins to a priest, played by Johnny Delgado, then goes to bed with her friend’s husband the next day. Angel is able to project the contrast between her spiritual and sinful side without much gimmickry.

This the movie’s main asset. It is devoid of artificial elements. No one gets slapped or raped to the audience to cry. The actors don’t deliver the lines. They’re just characters talking to one another. There are no violins in the background to highlight dramatic moments.

What’s artificial are the tears the three shed at the wake for someone they don’t even know. They are contrasted with genuine tears shed by different characters in the movie: Sharon pining for her son, and Eric finally realizing how much he loves his deceased father. Moviegoers may find themselves shedding a tear or two after watching this movie. Not necessarily tears of sadness but also tears of joy as the main characters experience changes in their lives.

And yes, the movie has a happy ending. Sharon doesn’t become a successful singer but scores a minor triumph which we won’t reveal so we don’t spoil your enjoyment of the movie. Clue: she wins an acting award. We won’t be surprised if she wins another during the filmfest’s awards night. Hilda, Angel and Eric all experience joyful moments before the closing credits roll.

Congratulations are in order for first-time director Mark Meily, who also wrote the screenplay from his Palanca award-winning work and Unitel’s Tony Gloria for bankrolling this thoroughly enjoyable movie.


Here's another one...

The Crying Ladies:Exposed!

Meet the last of the professional mourners of Manila's Chinatown. The street smart Stella Mate (Sharon Cuneta) who dreams of a better job to be able to get back custody of her beloved son Bong (Julio Pacheco) whom she lost to ex-husband Guido (Ricky Davao). Then there is Doray (Hilda Koronel) a.k.a. Rhodora Rivera, a bit player of the '70's whose life revolves around the glory days of her B-movies career. And religious and naive Choleng (Angel Aquino) who simply cannot resist the sexual advances of her best friend's husband. These are the crying ladies - three women who decide to accept a part-time job to be the professional mourners for a traditional Chinese funeral for the late George Washington Chua, father of Wilson Chua (Eric Quizon).
The story of these three women are given life in the context of a funeral wake. A heartwarming comedy, it sheds light on the struggles and little dreams of ordinary people living in the back streets of Chinatown. Stella's struggle to survive touches the hearts of all women who are in similar situations - making ends meet, estranged husband, the other woman and the pain of being separated from a child.
The stories of Doray and Choleng are stories of every person's search for acceptance and significance. In Doray, it is through a faded movie career that never really takes off. In Choleng, it is through a forbidden love affair. The movie is also a story of compassion and forgiveness. During the wake, when Wilson encounters his father's other family, he learns to accept them. And when going through his father's personal effects, he begins to truly understand his father and cries out for a lost relationship.
Finally, Crying Ladies is a story of hope and triumph. Amidst all these, the women survive and emerge victorious in the many little ways that make up real life. A son learns to forgive his father and beyond that, he forgives himself. Crying Ladies will move you to tears... and laughter... but mostly it will move you.
Crying Ladies is another venture of Unitel Pictures, the same company that produced the highly successful American Adobo. Based on a Palanca Award-winning script, the storyline attracted the interest of megastar Sharon Cuneta and screen legend Hilda Koronel. They are joined by outstanding actors, Eric Quizon, Angel Aquino and Ricky Davao. The movie was written and directed by Mark Meily and produced by Tony Gloria, both are well-known and recognized among the advertising circle. It will be Unitel Pictures' entry to the Metro Manila Film Festival this December.


So guys its not too late to watch this movie I'll tell you, you'll be crying for joy.


Thursday, January 1, 2004

Happy new Year Guys!!

Celebrated New Year with a bit of sadness coz only my sister and I we're at home, my dad is somewhere in manila maybe on their boarding house hubog na tingali hahahah, then my Mom and bro went to "World of lights and Lantern" and celebrated the new year with GMA's very long fireworks spectacular.

The house is full of mess but me? the superstistious one did it instead of throwing coins I threw play moneys hahah tag 100, 200, 500, 1000. They also said that throwing gold and silver glitters before the new year would bring good luck in doing business this year of the monkey (hahaha Monkey Business!), then dalawang beses akong naligo na may rock salt ang tubig then istead of 10 round fruits 7 lang orange, small orange, calamansi, apple the other 3 we're vegetables haha, garlic, white onion and tomato, my sister and I argued ngano daw vegetables I told her " Dili diay pwede vegetables eh murag fruit naman sila ". Polka Dots? We didn't wore any instead we use a manila paper and used a blue spray paint then gi post sa mya walls, the dots looks green which is actually a lucky color for this year. My Ate told me that wearing new clothing in the new year means new happenings will come this 2004 , so I wore my fave new clothes from my auntie's while a new rrj pants from my dad..

Well the food was good actually sobra pa nga since we're not expecting any visitors that night,there was barbecue which I personally grilled, jumbo hotdogs, spageti, softdrinks sliced bread and some fiesta ham and queso de bola that wasn't opened due to our laziness shame!

New year means new hope and new challenges coming hmm can't wait for school to open and see my friends whther buhay pa or nag survive sa putukan sana naman hindi no so for now HAPPY NEW YEAR

What's my New Years Resolution?

Gary's New YEar Resolution
1) Get thin
2) Start a business
3) Boost my entertainment prowess as if naa haha
4) Lessen my negative stuff
5) Get my life to move on I do hope this year works..

Tuesday, December 30, 2003

This Year and that coming year...

First of all, I would like to send my condolences to Leslie's Dad who passed away yesterday, as well as Miko Sotto and the victims of the Southern Letye Tragedy...Yesterday really surprised me from what I heard on the news, seen on the blog and words from the people... what's so surprising was its December... 2 days to go and it'll be a new year for everyone new lives new hope but how can we go on with these new stuff if the peole we dearly love didn't even see a spark of fireworks in the sky... Sure time would make them move on with their lives but the next time this day comes back things are now different a bit different... sometimes changes can be scary and frustrating... just a thought...

Year 2003... what a year for everybody! A new set of emotions released, new learnings discovered, new friends and foes acquired, old problems we're now solve new challenges arises, some where happy some were sad some grow old and some we're born. Personally, its been a crazy year for me, I learned a lot of things (and hopefully I can apply them!) not so academically sorry but in reality's sake.

LEts start with the sad part... My recklessness in driving serves are a merk in my Dad's Wallet hehehe, the frustrations arises, Somebody gave me an honesty blown but not in a proper way in my Birthday, I lied.. I became greedy.. Makulit pa rin and magasto as if no tomorrow, Politics in the Philippines aarg! Deaths, Kris Aquino and Joey another Aaaarg! Sibling Rivaly and the gaps. Household Chores well sort of, Fatigue, those "I wish I said the correct words" moment! most of all I became a disappointment in the eyes that I the people I cared a lot and dearly loved yikes!

Happy Part! Of course Blogspot and Friendster! they taught me that Friends last really a lifetime, They are treasures that was buried six feet in the ground but was found again at that perfect moment. Next, forgiveness thanks to those people I've hurt, then there are Chances, these are the things that made me a bit better about myself and a giving them the wrong impression on their frist impression (hmm redundant!). Thanks Guys! I did a lot of Guts this year.. guts to drive all by myself hehehe (Sory Dad!), to audition and thinking I'll be the next Gary V. or Edu Manzano or the next Studio 23 Vj hahaha, the guts to move on, to cry and move on in a shorter length of timeand materialistically speaking, Crying Ladies, First Romance, Finding Nemo, Survivor Pearl Islands, Will and Grace, Just Shoot me!, Studio 23 hahhaha the things that I've never thought I won't need just came on dropping on my lap and telling me "Hey you need this!", Friends Old ones new Ones and even enemies whee, my 3 orgs Theater Guild, CEC, CompE COuncil and now another growing org K.Y.O. my organizer, my computer, my ex who still bugs me and so many things to be thankful for like to Live the next coming year and try to enjoy more as if there'll be no tomorrow and mend all the mistakes of the past...Happy New Year Guys

EEeeps I had a final learning from ABS-CBN's "Of fine whatever"
" Huwag kang magalit sa taon dahil hindi naman ang taon ang nagpapasama sa tao kundi ang tao ang nagpapasama sa taon"
- Gloria Diaz as "Pacita ang 2003"

And the words that I can still remember and trying to apply and develop

" Hindi lahat ng paghihirap ay tatagumpay, hindi lahat ng pagmamahal ay nagtatagal pero minsan sa atin buhay sinubukan nating sumikap at umibig at yan ang mahalaga"

- Charo Santos "Maalaala Mo kaya"
" Wen u nid som1 2b der 4 u, & no 1 s around gaze up at d sky.U myt nt c me from upder bt remember wer jus under the same.. I cud never b2 faraway.."
- A friends of mine in his text
" ... seee balance...!"
- John A. Lim
" Quesera sera whatver will be will be..."
- Maia Donsen
" Sumbagun tika ron.. as in f&*k!"
- Me, my lambing phrase
" Clit Licker! "
- Marichu Panes
" Young Gurl dont cry I'll be right here when your world starts to fall"
- Cristina Aguilera
" It doesn't have to be this way I need you I need you"
- Avril Lavigne
" Don't break my heart slow.."
- Vonda Shepherd
" Buang ka!"
- Milyn Dacua, sapot!
"Nganong ni Enter!"
- Mga Bisaya about Life
" My God Becky!" - Ms D. Yanskie!
" Whatever! Bugits! Sira ulo wa kay gamit, kung magpapakamatay gawin mo na dalian mo lang ha! ehehhe akala ko uto uto ka.."
- Marvie, my little sister
" Lahat ng tao nangangarap ng isang masaganang buhay na kahit sa isang simpleng mabuting gawain ay ikaliligaya na"
- Me, Theater Guild's Christmas Production Proposal
" Paano ka magmahal kung sa simula pa lamang ay mali nang umibig?"
- My Feb. Production Teaser sa T.G.
" Its not what knd of give you have but the fact that you remember, not that big fat bonus but on how you use it wisely, coz you see its not about the occasion but how you celebrate and enjoy every minute of it"
- That Studio 23 Thought!