Date: February 5, 2004 4:54 PM
Subject: Ei! Nano! Basahin mo to!!!! (Don't be Lazy!!)
Message: This is a story i came upon one day and
finally
was able to read. YO.. stop bein lazy and just
read on. If u dont.. ud miss a story id say is
worth callin.. TRUE LOVE... read on. But hey...
just read it if u want too. Dont be forced too.
****** She was my best friend and I have known
her since we were small….
******* She knew all my secrets, which reveals
my feelings for her, that I love her not only
because she’s pretty and smart but also the way
she laugh at everything and the way she sees
life and love..
******* I could still remember the first time
we met, I was five years old then, it was one
windy
afternoon having no one to play with except for
my best friend Troy.
He and his family just move out to transfers at
a neighboring state because his father got
promote. And so I climbed up our tree house, I
saw a moving truck coming down the street, I
watched it approaching and noticed a family
station wagon following it.
******* it stop in front of the house and out
came a family. I was about to glance away when
out
came the loveliest girl I’ve seen.
******* She four years old that time but then
even at an early age she was a beauty.
******* She had long curly hair which reach
almost to her waist, she has fair complexion and
eyes
which could make a man lose his heart into them.
******* I continued to watch her, when suddenly
she looked up and saw me watching them in the
tree house window.
******* I was about to duck when she smiled and
waved her hand. I waved back then watched in
amazement as I saw her running towards the tree
house…
******* so I went to the edge of the ladder and
said, “ Would you like to come up?” she
answered,
May I?” so I help her climb up and when she
reach the top she then turned to me and said, “
By
the way, my name’s Sam, what’s yours?” I
answered, “ My name is Christopher but the you
can
call me Chris.” She smiled and said.” Well I
like your name.
****** Hey your tree house’s neat!” then I
replied! Thanks! Troy and I made this, this used
to be
our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball
and go biking together.
****** He was my best friend and I kind of miss
him you know.” She smiled me and said “ I’m here
now, we could do things you used to with troy
and I could be your new friend too. i never had
a boy for
a friend before so it could be exciting to
have one.
****** I could learn how to play ball and I have
my bicycle so we could go biking together.
****** now how does that sound to you?” I smiled
and said. “ Well that sounds good enough.”
****** Then she held her hand and said, “ it’s a
deal then” So that’s how it started.
****** So we became best friends and it was kind
of strange for.
****** She was girl and there are things which
I was hesitant to indulge her like catching
frogs,
swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but
then she tried and did everything just to please
me.
****** There was even a time when she fell off
the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we
had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped
knee.
****** I could still remember the time when she
hit the window of our neighbor when we were
playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr.
Chambers and promise to pay for the damage,
which meant having to loose a week’s allowance.
****** I remembered the time when I fell off the
tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten, Sam
near
to tears when she saw the helpless kitten
trapped in a branch.
****** I even fought with the tough guy and
tease Sam and made her cry and I ended up having
a
black eye and a bruised cheek.
****** I remember Sam crying as she placed an
ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a
get-well kiss. I did everything to please her
and gave everything her little heart desires.
****** The lake was our favorite hang out. We
had our Saturday swim routine, we would pack a
food and later eat them under the big oak tree.
****** there was a special branch in which the
two of us could sit together and tell each
other’s
dreams.
****** She dreams of being a Ballerina and she
knows my dream of becoming doctor, she never
laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they
were quite impossible. It made me like her even
more.
****** As years went by, I noticed that my
feelings towards her were slowly changing.
Somehow,
I thought it was just a simple crush case, but
when i started thinking about her at night,
dreaming
of her and having the feeling of wanting to be
with her all the time.
****** I thought it was something different,
something that made me feel strange, but then it
was
exhilarating feeling, it made me feel so alive,
whenever our hands touch, I could feel the
tingling
sensation in my spine.
****** Once when we were at the lake having our
Saturday swim routine and as I carried her
towards the water edge, I had the feeling of
not wanting to let go.
****** I just wanting that moment to continue
hoping it would never end. I then realized I was
slowly falling in love with my best friend.
****** Many times I tried to deny the feeling
for I was scared to imagine what would happen if
ever
I’d try to tell her hoe I feel about her.
****** I was scared because she might think that
I’m taking advantage of her and our friendship, I
was afraid of losing her so I just kept my
feeling hidden.
****** We reached the age of fifteen and I
noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day.
****** How my heart aches whenever I see boys
glance her way, I want to punch their noses as I
watch them talking to her giving compliments,
flowers and chocolates, There were times when I
watch her at a distance mixed feelings anger and
hurt because it hurts so much to know that
there were so many things I wanted to tell her
but then I could not do so.
****** There were so many presents which I long
to give her but then I could not for she might
see
me only as a friend. I was also scared of
letting her know how I feel about her as much as
losing
her.
****** Then one day, I just learned from one
friend that she already had a boyfriend. At
first, I tried
to convince my self that it just a rumor.
****** Her boyfriend was Mark “a popular
senior” who was the heartthrob of the campus.
****** She, being the cheerleader was close to
the basketball team which Mark was the captain,
when I saw the walking together at the parking
lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart
slowly breaking into pieces.
****** I saw her wave at me but I just pretended
not to see her for I was scared that she might
see
in my eyes the pain I’m feeling inside because
of seeing her with another guy.
****** Those days that followed where the
saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when
I
see her walk by me with him at her side.
****** every time we meet in hallways and I see
him around her, there’s a feeling inside me that
makes me want to grab her away from him, How it
hurts to see the girls I long possess was now
owned by somebody else. That special smile I
long for her to cast on me was now casted on him
as she passes by me, she doesn’t know that I
whispered the words “God hoe I love you.”
****** Then one faithful day they broke-up. She
came to me that evening crying on my shoulder.
They had a big fight and ended up to their
break up.
****** Mixed felling were scaring me inside. I
was happy because she was free and maybe I
would have the chance of telling her my true
feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad
because she is crying her heart out just for
him.
****** at that time, I was not quite sure of
what I wanted to do. So we found our selves
doing what
we did in old days with our Saturday swim
routine, spending time in our tree house, we
still
enjoyed doing childish pranks for we are still
are both young at heart.
****** So many chances I had for me to confess
my feelings for her but still I couldn’t bring
my self
to her for I was scared of losing her once more.
****** I once lost her, now I could not bear of
losing her again by telling her I love her.
****** So I just kept my feelings even if it was
bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.
****** It was a week from our JS Prom, we were
seated at the branch of an oak tree drying
ourselves after our afternoon swim when she
said “ I was wondering Chris if you like to be
my
partner ?” it just out of my wits for it was
like a dream I never thought would happen.
****** It took me a while to answer he, “ I
thought there are so many boys who would die for
to be
their partner ?” So she turned away and quietly
said “Well I just thought I would like to spend
that
night with my best friend.”
****** Then she continued in a whisper I could
barely hear, “ Don’t you want to die just like
them
to be my partner Chris?”
I was too stunned to speak for it came close for
me to blurt my feelings for her
****** We’re silent for a while until I finally
whispered “ I would be happy to be your partner
Sam “
****** Then she smiled and suddenly kiss my
cheek, I could hardly contained the joy I felt
that
time, I saw her turned rd and bowed her head.
****** Suddenly she stood up and run towards the
water saying, “ Last one to reach the water
treats to sundae fudge! “
****** I ran slowed up so that I would lose
which meant having to have her with me for
another
three hours or more.
****** Our Prom night came, I bought a new
tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of
perfume, I went to fetch Sam.
****** Sam’s mother greeted me and I went to sit
in the living room waiting for her to come down.
****** I was talking to her father when i heard
her say, “ How do I look ?” I look up and saw
her
lovelier than ever in strapless white dress with
her hair flowing around her face.
****** I stood up and opened my mouth but found
out I could not find my voice.
****** When I got her hand shakily fastened the
corsage around her wrist and whispered, “ To the
loveliest girl in the whole world “ She then
ask, “ is the true?”
****** I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back
then I turned to open the door her.
****** When we arrived at the gymnasium we
hardly recognized our classmates, gone were the
jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with
tuxedos and gowns.
****** Then I held her hand bowed and said, “
would you give the honor of your first dance?”
She
laughed and curtseyed.
****** The I led her to the dance floor, it was
like a dream coming true, a moment of
enchantment,
I was there dancing with the only girl I ever
loved, she was smiling up to me, as we were
slowly
moving in a smooth gliding motion.
******* I found my self lost as I stared down to
her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair
were
like waves enhancing her beautiful face.
******* There were so many things to tell her
that moment. I wanted to tell her that she was
the
most beautiful girl that night, I wanted to
tell her that she would always be the beacon of
light in
my darkness.
******* But what I wanted to tell her the most
was I love her, I drew up all my courage and
bent to
whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music
stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to
telling her, but still haven’t done it.
****** We walked towards the table and found
ourselves surrounded by friends ask her if she
want a drink, she nodded and so I went to get
one, it took me a lone time to get one and when
I
returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her
friend, Katie, where she was but she told me
that
she doesn’t know. So I went out and search for
he.
****** as I was searching for her, I reached the
garden, there I saw two silhouette figures
outlined
by the moon’s silvery light, there were so close
to each other, I could never described the
feeling I
had when I recognized the white dress Sam was
wearing that night. I just turned and left the
gymnasium.
****** Since that night, I avoided her, Many
times she tried talking to me but I never gave
her a
chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say
that she loves mark and not me. I would rather
have
left in ignorance of her true feelings for me
than to hear from those dreaded words and feel
my
hope crush and my heart break.
****** I didn’t return her calls. I would not
see her if she comes into our house. In the
hallways, as
she approaches I would go to another direction,
it also hurts to do those things but then I
thought
that was the best way to forger her, Those
months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.
****** The day of our graduation came, I was
planning to take up medicine at a neighboring
state
and was to move out the next day. As the program
ended she approached me and handed me a
rose, s she stared at me there was something in
her eyes I couldn’t described.
****** There was sadness in them and when she
smiled it wasn’t the same smile she had, I
wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that
I love her but then she turned and walked away
from me.
****** So I move out the next day as I planned,
luckily, I was accepted at the university, I
concentrated with my studies but still I think
of her at night.
****** I was always wondering if she think of me
too, I tried hard not to think of her but still
I could
not stop myself from loving her.
****** Each achievement I have was done was for
her, I thought that if I will be successful one
day, I would be able to tell her that I love her
and by that time, I’m worthy of having her.
****** It was a year after our graduation when I
decide to returned home and see her again, I
thought a year is too much for me not to see
her, and during the past year I felt like a
person lost
in the desert and only the sight of her could
quench the thirst I have inside.
****** As I got off the plane, I went home
directly, desperate to get house to see her, to
hug her,
then I would tell her that I missed her and that
I have loved her for a long time.
****** This time I am determined to let her my
true feelings for her and I could not contain
anymore the love I have for her.
****** I reached their house, I saw her older
sister and I approached her, I smile at her but I
noticed she didn’t smile back, I was confused
for she used to be a cheerful lazy like my dear
Sam, I then ask, ‘ hi Jen! I guess you’re
surprised why I’m here, well I just want to
visit you and I
was also hoping to see Sam, I kind of miss her
you know.. Ummm……..bby the way have you
seen her?” all I saw was sadness in her eyes as
she replied quietly, “ Come follow me.”
****** I was confused with the way she’s acting
but still I followed her.
****** as we were walking, I was trying to
indulge her in conversation but just answered my
question briefly, Then I realized that she was
leading me to the direction of the lake.
****** It was still same as I left it, with the
sane oak tree Sam and I used to climb up, I
smiled upon
remembering the kiss Sam gave when I’m agreed to
be her partner, it’s been one of the happiest
days in my life and I realized that I miss Sam
more than I thought.
****** Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to
the tree, she then whispered, “ There’s Sam. “
I looked at where she was pointing and saw a
newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever
loved. I could not believe at what I saw and
desperately tried convincing myself that this is
all just
a nightmare and would soon wake up.
****** I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her
eyes searching for explanations and slowly
started
saying, “ It has been a week since she died. She
died of Leukemia, but even though she was
sick, she never stopped thinking about you, it
was even your name she uttered before she died.
****** She ask us to bury her here for she
always regard this place as a place of LOVE. She
said
that this is where she had spent the happiest
days and that was when she was with you. By the
way she also asked me to give you this.”
****** she handed me a parcel, and with that she
left. I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it
contained the dried orchid from the corsage I
gave her for our prom.
****** Then at he bottom I saw a letter. It was
dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands
and started reading…….
*************************************************
*************************************************
*************
I know by this time you read this letter I’m
gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very
lucky and
thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I
would also like you to know that I had left
something
inside, something I kept from you all these
years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way
but as one
who would feel like spending the rest of my life
with, I have always love you even from the
start. I
guess it just bloomed each day that’s why the
happiest days of my life was when you were by my
side.
****** You just don’t know hoe I dreamed of you
at night and wake up in the morning and dream
no more for you are with me, when you are away,
I can’t stop crying because I’m afraid to think
that you are with another girl, I just want you
all to my self, I may sound selfish but that’s
how I
fell. Each time you held me close to you was
like a dream coming true for to be close to you
and
feel your heart beating..
****** Next to mine was heaven. So many things I
did so that you will learn to love me but I
NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please
you because I love you so much that I even tried
to
fool myself that you’re in love with me too.
***** So many nights I’ve cried when I think of
myself unloved by you. Well you might think that
what I’m sayin are lies but, I tell you, my
heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling
a lie to the
one I love.
****** I know you might be thinking of Mark but
I just did that to make you jealous, to make you
see me as a young woman, capable of loving and
not as the little girl you used to play with.
****** Sometimes I imagined that you were
jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign
that you
feel something for me too.
****** When Mark and I broke up and I came
crying, I just did that to know hoe you would
react
and with that I’ll know that you love me too.
But I failed for you didn’t give me any clue.
***** when our prom night came, you just don’t
know how happy I was when you handed me the
corsage and saying that I was the loveliest
girl in the whole world.
****** While we were dancing, I wanted so
desperately to hear you say that you love me too
but
you NEVER did. When mark came and pleaded me to
give him a second chance, I was scared
that you might see us talking.
****** I didn’t want you to get the wrong
impression so I told him we would talk in the
garden.
There I explained to him that it’s you whom I
really love.
****** what happened next was that I found you
missing and later learned that you were
searching
for me, I just concluded that you saw us
together.
****** The next day, I tired to explain but then
you never gave me a chance to do so, you
continuously avoided me and never knew how much
pain I’ve experienced that time.
****** I felt the world crushing on me. In our
Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted
to
tell you how much I love you but I decided that
I just couldn’t do it. I could not bear to hear
that all
you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love
For.
****** I want you to love me as a woman and not
as a girl or playmate.
****** So I just turned away and left.
****** Now that I’m saying I LOVE YOU might be
too late, still want you to know that I will
always
love you and my heart has always been and will
be yours alone.
P.S.
********* Think of me sometimes…..and always
remember that loving you was the best thing that
ever happened my life…
*************************************************
*************************************************
*************
I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter,
I wanted to shout out to let her know that I
love her, if
not as much, but more than she did for me.
****** I love her more than anything in this
world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave
and rain
started to fall. I continued crying softly and
whispered, “ OH God, send my love to heaven.”
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WEl wat do u think? So to all those ppol whu hav
sum1 special and close to their heart.. dont be
stupid to wait for a chance to tell them. Do it
now. Der is no such thing as the ryt tym to tell
any1 how u feel. The ryt tym is now so start
tellin ppol how u feel. I dunno if u wud want to
send this but im sendin this to all of u guys to
really start aking ur friends and specially ur
one and only's with love dat is true. Friendship
happens once in a lifetym and we only hav a
lyftym to last. So... to all u guys im sendis
dis out too.. I LUV U ALL!!
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